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Nathan Skynet Vinall
Today is that day. The day when I really speak my mind. Im not normally one to complain or piss and moan or share personal information as its just not me, but today my valve finally broke!!!!!! :/
This is something I feel finally ready to share with you all. Please don’t think Im picking on any one person and please don’t think Im looking for help or sympathy, just understanding is all I ask and to share with you all seeing how that seems to be evolutions request - TO SHARE INFORMATION.
Im very private & zen like normally so this is quite challenging for me to do. Im laying some cards on the table.
JUST BEFORE THE CLOCKWORK RELEASE IN 2001 I HAD A PERSONAL TRAGEDY THAT TURNED MY WORLD UPSIDE DOWN. THE LOSS OF ONE'S DAUGHTER IS SOMETHING I WOULDN'T WISH FOR ANYONE TO EVER EXPERIENCE, SOMETHING THAT ONE WILL NEVER EVER BE THE SAME FROM.
SO IF YOU NEEDED AN ANSWER TO "WHAT HAPPENED TO SKYNET SINCE THE CLOCKWORK ALBUM, WHENS HE GONNA MAKE MORE CLOCKWORK SHIT AS HIS STUFF SUCKS NOW" AS SO MANY OF YOU SEEM TO MENTION FREQUENTLY WITHOUT ANY REAL DEPTH OF THOUGHT!
WELL ITS CALLED LIFE!! AND IN LIFE DEATH HAPPENS! THE DEATH OF MY DAUGHTER HAPPENED IN MY HANDS, THESE VERY HANDS THAT CREATED THE MUSIC YOU ALL LOVED. THESE HANDS COULD NOT DO ANYTHING FOR HER AND ARE WORTHLESS HAVING IN REAL TERMS. AS ONE CAN IMAGE THIS HAS LEFT A HOLE SO LARGE IN MY BEING THAT EVERY DAY I HAVE TO FIGHT JUST TO STOP BEING VIOLENTLY SUCKED INSIDE OF IT.
THIS HAS NOT BEEN EASY FOR ME AND AS IM SURE EVERYONE KNOWS MY OUTPUT HASN'T BEEN UP TO MUCH SINCE. BUT I CARRY ON, TRYING TO PUSH FORWARD TO CONTINUE WITH CREATING MUSIC. I EVEN TOURED AMERICA 2 WEEKS AFTER HER DEATH JUST TO KEEP THE D&B SHOW GOING!! STILL PUTTING ON THE FAKE SMILE, STILL GIVING EVERYONE THE D&B BULLSHIT LINE "ITS ALL GOOD" !
SO MAYBE FOR ME MAKING "CLOCKWORK SOUNDING" TRACKS REALLY DOESN'T RECALL THE BEST ERA OF MY LIFE?
SINCE THAT TIME I HAD TO TAKE A BACK SEAT IN MUSIC. I MOVED TO AMERICA TO TRY TO GET AWAY FROM THE HORRORS OF MY EXPERIENCE. EVERYWHERE I LOOKED IN THE UK REMINDED ME OF LOOSING MY GIRL. HENCE WHY WE MOVED TO SEATTLE AT THAT TIME. I CAME OVER HERE TO FIND SOME SOLICE FROM THE SURROUNDING ENVIRONMENT OF THE NORTH WEST AND TAKE SOME TIME OUT, BUT STILL WORKING ON MUSIC, TRYING TO GET MY DRIVE BACK TO WHERE I HAD IT, IF AT ALL POSSIBLE. SHORTLY AFTER THAT TIME STAKKA AND I WENT ARE OUR SEPARATE WAYS.
SO NOW THAT PART IS OUT THE WAY HOPEFULLY THE REST MIGHT MAKE A LITTLE MORE SENSE NOW.
WHILST LIVING HERE IN AMERICA IVE PLAYED FOR MANY PROMOTERS, I ALSO PLAYED FOR SOME REALLY CHEAP PRICES TO HELP THEM OUT BECAUSE THEY DIDN'T SEEM TO BE DOING A VERY GOOD JOB IN PROMOTING THE EVENTS AND WERE LOOSING MONEY ALL OVER THE PLACE. I DON'T LIKE PEOPLE LOSING MONEY AT SHOWS IT HURTS THEM AND HURTS THE SCENE AND I FEEL IS TOTALLY GRATUITOUS. I DIDN'T WANT THAT. SO I HELPED OUT.
I DID THIS FOR MANY YEARS PLAYING VARIOUS SHOWS FOR $500!!!!! JUST TO HELP KEEP OUR SCENE ALIVE!!! IF THAT ISN'T CHEAP ENOUGH AND SHOWING MY SUPPORT FOR THE D&B CLUB SCENE IN AMERICA THEN I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT DOES. ALL THE WHILE IM NOT DOING THE BEST FINANCIALLY EITHER. SADLY IN THAT TIME BOOKING AGENTS AND PROMOTERS ABUSED THE HELP I SHOWED THEM. FOR ANYONE THAT THINKS IM RIDING HIGH LIKE A LOT OF THE OTHER TWATS OUT THERE MILKING THIS SHIT, IM NOT! AND HAVE BEEN IN THE TRENCHES FOR MANY YEARS, BUT IM NEVER A ONE TO COMPLAIN I JUST GET ON WITH THINGS AND TRYING TO PUT FOOD ON MY TABLE, WHICH I CAN TELL YOU NOW, MANY DAYS IVE GONE WITH OUT FOOD, MANY!!! .
SO WHEN I SEE OTHERS EATING LIKE KINGS THAT HAVE DONE NOTHING FOR THE SCENE OR EVEN CREATED ANYTHING WORTHY OF SUCH REWARDS, BUT HAVING ONLY MADE MONEY FROM OTHER PEOPLES CREATIONS, IT BECOMES VERY HARD FOR ME TO STAY FOCUSED AND CENTERED AND STILL REMAIN TRUE TO MY PASSION...DRUM & BASS.
BUT EVEN THEN I DIDN'T JUMP ON THE DUBSTEP, DRUM STEP, CLOWN STEP, TRAP STEP, WANK STEP BAND WAGON LIKE SO MANY OF YOU DID JUST TO MAKE BANK OR STAY POPULAR. I TRIED TO EARN MONEY AND STAY ALIVE FROM OTHER MEANS. MY PASSION IN EDM IS FOR D&B AND ALWAYS WILL BE NO MATTER WHAT! NOT A PASSION FOR MONEY OR ATTENTION LIKE THE REST. SOME OF WHICH I CLASSED AS FRIENDS, BUT YOU ALL JUMPED SHIP THE MOMENT IT HIT ROUGH WATERS AND LEFT THE REST OF US SINKING! SHAME ON YOU!!
COULD YOU IMAGE WHAT THESE PEOPLE WOULD BE LIKE IF SHIT TURNED UPSIDE DOWN IN SOCIETY?? THOSE ARE THE VERY CUNTS THAT WOULD STEAL YOUR FOOD WHILST YOU NOT LOOKING AND BLAME SOMEONE ELSE OR STAB YOU IN THE FACE WHILE YOU SLEEP JUST TO KEEP THEIR HEADS ABOVE WATER! THESE PEOPLE HAVE PROVEN & SHOWN THEIR TRUE NATURE AND AGENDA QUITE CLEARLY TO ME. I FOR ONE WILL NEVER FORGET WHO YOU ARE AND WHAT YOUR ABOUT. IT HAS BEEN NOTED.
FOR THE PAST YEAR I'VE BEEN LIVING IN PORTLAND AND NOT ONE PROMOTER HAS HAD ME PLAY AT THEIR WEEKLY EVENTS.I DEFINITELY WON’T BE PLAYING HERE NOW AFTER THIS! HA
TELL A LIE, WHEN I FIRST GOT HERE I DID HAVE ONE GUY ASK IF I WOULD PLAY FOR $100!!!! WHEN I SAID POLITELY NO, SORRY (ON 3 DIFFERENT OCCASIONS, YOU WOULD THINK 1 WOULD BE ENOUGH) I JUST CAN'T DO IT FOR THAT. HE THEN GOT PISSY WITH ME AND ACTED LIKE I WAS SOME FUCKING ASSHOLE!!!
AND THAT’S THE KIND OF SHIT I GET CONSTANTLY IN RETURN FOR MY CONTRIBUTIONS!!??
IVE ALWAYS TRIED TO TREAT PEOPLE THE WAY I LIKE TO BE TREATED, BUT IT SEEMS LIKE BEING NICE TO PEOPLE IS NOT A RECIPROCAL EVENT ANYMORE.
PEOPLE THAT KNOW ME, KNOW I DON'T EVER TALK IT UP OR GET SHITTY OR BITTER!! I LIKE TO THINK IM A HAPPY, POSITIVE, HUMBLE AND UNDERSTANDING PERSON BUT,
IM A ONE FOR FACTS! SO HERE’S SOME REAL TALK....
THROUGH BLOOD, SWEET, DEBT, HUNGER, AND TEARS....I'VE CREATED, MIXED, MASTERED & RELEASED OVER 200 + RECORDS SPANNING OVER 17 YEARS OF PUTTING WORK TO ELECTRONIC MUSIC!!!!!!! IVE BUILT 5 STUDIOS WITH MY OWN HANDS, TRAVELLED THE WORLD 10 TIMES OVER. I’VE WORKED & HAVE BEEN IN THE STUDIO ALONG SIDE SOME AMAZING TALENTED PEOPLE LIKE STAKKA, KEMAL & ROB, DOM & ROLAND, BABYFACE, BRANDY, TI, TIMBERLAND, UNDERDOGS, SCOTT STORCHES ENGINEER, CHUCK TREECE, AND A TON OF OTHERS..
I’VE CREATED SOME OF THE BIGGEST AND MOST PIONEERING TRACKS IN EDM, DRUM & BASS TO DATE. A LOT OF WHICH OTHER PRODUCERS HAVE JUST PICKED UP THAT STYLE THAT WAS CREATED AND RAN WITH IT!! THE WHOLE SCENE WE HAVE NOW HAS ALL STEMMED FROM THAT SOUND!!!!!! WETHER IT BE A TEARING DANCE TRACK OR A MINIMAL DEEP ROLLER YOU CAN BET YOUR ASS IT STEMMED FROM SOMETHING THAT I HAD A BIG PART OF CREATING.
I AM FUCKING SOUND MAN! I AM MUSIC! AND YOU WANNA PAY ME $100?
COULD ONE BE MORE INSULTING?
SEE IM JUST NOT A BUSINESS/INDUSTRY MAN = SCREWING PEOPLE OVER FOR GAIN AND MONEY! PROBABLY WHY I DON’T HAVE MUCH. BUT ALL I EVER ASK IS JUST ENOUGH MONEY FOR A GOOD STUDIO AND HEALTHY FOODS!
EVERYONE NOW IS EARNING A SMALL FORTUNE OUT OF SOMETHING THAT I HAD A BIG HAND IN CREATING. NOW I'VE GOT NOTHING AGAINST THAT PER SAY, PEOPLE GET INSPIRED FROM GOOD SHIT AND NOTHING CAN STOP THAT, BUT WHAT IS SERIOUSLY WRONG AND IS SO FUCKING HARD FOR ME TO HAVE TO SAY IS THIS....
WHAT DID YOU FORGOT ABOUT ME?
WHAT YOU THINK I JUST SLIPPED OFF THE EDGE OF THE FUCKING EARTH & FORGOT HOW TO CREATE SICK BEATS?
WHERE DO YOU THINK THOSE VIBES AND BASS LINES ALL YOU PRODUCERS ARE WORKING SO HARD STILL TODAY TO COPY COME FROM? DID YOU MAKE THEM UP? DID YOU INVENT THOSE?
CUZ I KNOW I HAD A HUGE PART OF INVENTING THOSE SOUNDS AND STYLES. I WAS NOT ALONE BY ANY MEANS, BUT I THINK I CAN SAFLEY SAY THAT I COME UP WITH SHIT THAT NO ONE ELSE IN THE WOLRD HAD EVER HEARD BEFORE. ME I DID, RIGHT OUT OF THING AIR AND NOT FROM WATCHING SOME FUCKING MASSIVE TUTORIAL ON YOUTUBE !!
JUST BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE MANY NEW RELEASES OUT & DONT HAVE THE CORRECT ENVIRONMENT TO CREATE THE BEST MUSIC I CAN....
DOES THAT MEAN YOU WRITE ME OFF, JUST LIKE THAT!!?? YOU FORGOT HISTORY? ON WITH THE NEXT, REALLY?
YOU WRITE ME OFF BECAUSE IM NOT THE FLAV OF THE WEEK, WHEN THE FLAV OF THE WEEK IS SOME SNOTTY NOSE PUNK WHO IS RIPPING THE VERY STYLE THAT I FUCKING CREATED & BUILT 13 YEARS AGO??!!!
ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS!!!!!?????????? ARHHHHHH I WANNA HULK SMASH EVER SINGLE FUCKING ONE OF YOU LITTLE CUNTS!!!
AND NOW I HAVE TO STAND UP HERE AND SAY THIS SHIT, YOU ACTUALLY PUSHED ME TO THIS LEVEL WHERE I HAVE TO FUCKING SPELL IT OUT FOR YOU. FUCKING SHAME ON YOU, SHAME ON ALL YOU CUNTS!
NO MORALS, HONOR OR RESPECT. NONE OF WHICH VALUES ARE UNDERSTOOD ANYMORE.
HELL I CAN'T EVEN REALLY BLAME YOU THOUGH AS IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT AS SUCH, AMERICA IS ONE GIANT CORPORATION AND YOUR JUST A EMPLOYEE! YOU ALL GET TAUGHT FROM AN YOUNG AGE TO RINSE SHIT OUT TO MAKE MONEY FROM ANYTHING YOU CAN AND NOT TO CARE WHO GETS HURT IN THE PROCESS... THATS WHY YOUR HIP HOP AND POP SCENE IS SO OBSESSED WITH MAKING MONEY!! EVEN "THE OFFICE" ON TV WHICH YOU TOOK AND RINSED IT THE FUCK OUT!! THEN THAT "DUDE" (I REFUSE TO SAY HIS NAME) WHO BEFRIENDED, USED AND RIPPED OFF BANKY'S!! "EXIT THROUGH THE GIFT SHOP" ITS ALL THE SAME FUCKING THING MAN WHERE EVER YOU LOOK IN AMERICA!! EVEN BACK IN THE DAYS OF “NIKOLA TESLA”.
IT SEEMS ALL REAL CREATORS GET FUCKED UP THE ASS AND THE CHEATS AND SKANKS TAKE ALL THE GLORY. BUT NO ONE GIVES A SHIT, EVERYONE CARRIES ON ONLY YEARS LATER TO COME TO THE CONCLUSION THOSE CREATIONS MEANT SOMETHING BIG!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I MEAN COME ON!! STOOOOOOOOOOOP IT!!!!!!!!! STOP RISING SHIT OUT FOR THE SAKE OF MAKING MONEY!! START DOING SOMETHING THAT IS YOU AND STOP RIPPING EVERYONE ELSE OFF! START BEING HONEST AND TRUE TO ONESELF!
THIS MENTALITY IS SADLY SPREADING TOO ENGLAND AS WELL. PEOPLE RINSING SHIT OUT AND JUMPING ON STYLES AND THEN ACTING LIKE THEY CREATED IT. I SAW AN INTERVIEW THE OTHER DAY OF SOME NEW SCHOOL PRODUCERS IN MY HOME TOWN BRIGHTON. I SWEAR IT WAS LIKE A FUCKING MIRROR, THESE DUDES EVEN ACTED LIKE MYSELF AND STAKKA EVEN SAID THE SAME THINGS WE WOULD SAY?!! WTF IS GOING ON??
**TWILIGHT ZONE ALERT**
THEY ARE JUST DOING THE SAME THING THAT WE STARTED AND LEFT BEHIND 13 YEARS AGO AND ACTING LIKE ITS NEW AND THEY INVENTED IT! THIS TO ME IS MADNESS AND SUCH SHADY LIES BEING TOLD & SOLD. ITS ALL RETRO!
NOW CAN YOU SEE HOW “FALSE HISTORY” IS WRITTEN BY THE LEADERS OF THE TIME? SAME OLD SHIT! EVERYWHERE YOU LOOK THROUGH OUT HISTORY.
BIGGEST MISTAKE ONE PERSON CAN MAKE IS TO FORGET THE PAST. EVERYTHING YOU HAVE NOW HAS BEEN BUILT FROM HISTORY. YOU ALL STAND ON THE SHOULDERS OF FUCKING GIANTS AS DO I , BUT I KEEP RESPECT AND HONOR FOR THE PEOPLE THAT BUILT THE PATH I WALK ON, BUT THE REST OF YOU ARE ALL PICKING THE BEST APPLES FROM THE TOP OF TREE AND NOT THINKING OR HAVING ANY REGARD FOR HOW YOU GOT UP THAT HIGH AND THEN TO BOOT YOUR KEEPING ALL THOSE APPLES TO YOURSELF. HOW NICE!!!
THE AMOUNT OF MONEY THAT OTHERS MADE OFF THE BACK OF THE CLOCKWORK ALBUM IS INSANE! YOU WOULD THINK OR AT LEAST HOPE THAT THE CREATORS OF SUCH AN ALBUM COULD BE SET UP WITH ENOUGH MONEY TO JUST HAVE A REAL STUDIO AND EAT EVERY DAY!!?? TO BE ABLE TO CONTINUE TO CREATE MUSIC FOR WHAT THEY WERE BORN TO DO. SHAMEFULLY THIS COULDN'T BE FURTHER FROM THE TRUTH!!!!!
LIFE TOOK ME OUT THE MUSICAL PICTURE FOR A WHILE. STRANGELY AND HONESTLY I’VE FELT HELD DOWN FOR YEARS, BY WHAT & WHY I HAVE NO IDEA, BUT LIFE HAD OTHER PLANS FOR ME I GUESS, MAYBE TO LET THE REST OF THE WORLD CATCH UP? 13 YEARS LATER SEEMS LIKE ITS TIME.
DON’T THINK IM ASKING FOR ANY HELP AND CERTAINLY NOT TO FEEL SORRY FOR ME. I DON’T NEED IT. IM HEALTHY AND HAPPY AND THAT’S THE MOST IMPORTANT FACTOR..... ONLY MY CLOSEST AND DEAREST ARE ALL THE HELP & SUPPORT I NEED. THERE ARE ONLY A FEW REAL PEOPLE HERE IN THE US, THOSE PEOPLE I LOVE AND ALWAYS WILL. THEY ARE THERE FOR ME AND HAVE SUPPORTED ME IN SUCH BAD TIMES.
TO THOSE, I THANK YOU WITH ALL THAT I AM.
TO ALL THE OTHER FAKE PROMOTERS, PRODUCERS, DJS AND AGENTS...
I FEEL SORRY FOR YOU. I HOPE SOME DAY YOUR EYES TRULY OPEN.
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